My Skype interview with David
Weinstein was actually the first I did for this project. It took place ten days
before my trip to the west coast. This is an excerpt:
DW: My three
years in Hawaii with Aitkin Roshi were very difficult; he and I just did not
connect at all, and the koan practice . . . I had just spent four years in
Tibetan practice in Nepal and India and koan practice made me upset and that
was not what my idea of meditation practice was, and I didn’t want to do that.
And I ended up in Japan very resistant to doing koan meditation but I loved
seated meditation, so I ended up in Kamakura with Yamada as a graduate student,
as an exchange student from the University of Hawaii doing research in Tokyo at
Komazawa University, and he listened to me tell him that I did not do koans,
that I only did shikan taza. And I was prepared for him to tell me to leave
because, I don’t know, what I was basically telling him was I don’t do the
practice you do here. And he looked at me and he said, “Shikan taza is a very
difficult practice. Not many people attain realization with shikan taza. Maybe
the last person to attain realization with shikan taza was . . . mmm . . .
Dogen. But, I want you to attain realization with shikan taza. Please practice
diligently.” And he could have knocked me over with a feather when he said
that. Then he asked me this silly question; he said, “I have this question to
ask you. I don’t want you to think about it. You know, just forget it. And he
asked me how to stop the sound of the distant temple bell. Which I thought was
weird. I didn’t know it was a koan. I never spoke to anybody else about that.
And I’m just so grateful for that, because if I’d known it was a koan, it would
have just made that much more difficult for me. So I’m grateful for the idea of
not talking about it, and yet I have also seen such great value in what happens
when people do talk about it. And talk about it the sense of people sharing the
feelings of the explorations they’d had into their practice and their
relationship with the koan. No . . . uh . . .
it’s a practice of discovery for everybody, and a deep sharing without
any kind of weird ego stuff going on, nobody’s trying to prove they know
something somebody else doesn’t know. We tried to do discussion groups until
about ten years ago, and they were fraught with members . . . there was always
one or two members in the group that were difficult. We stopped doing it
because we thought, you know, maybe this was not a good thing to do. But it
kind of came up again a few years ago. And one of our members is a minister,
and in his church they have discussion groups, and he thought it was a good way
to build community. And it has been, a great community building . . . and more
than that, a great richness is added to the practice as everybody appreciates
that the wisdom is everywhere. It’s not just concentrated in somebody you call
a teacher. It’s always available to us right under our feet if we will just see
it.
RBM: How
would this differ from the traditional Christian practice of reflecting on
scripture passages?
DW:
Hopefully it would be more than people having discussion, having conversation.
We have gone through a process, initially twenty years ago, twenty-whatever
years ago, we were doing dokusan as our teachers had taught us dokusan. And
that has evolved from dokusan to “work in the room”—which was a phrase Yamada
used in Kamakura for the ceremony when someone had finished the curriculum of
koans. He always said, “Having finished the work in the room.” And we thought,
“work in the room,” it sounds . . . it’s not Japanese, and why do we have to
use Japanese words. It’s not necessary. Let’s call it “work in the room.” And more recently I myself call it conversations
because it’s about a conversation which is a two-way process.
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