The sky
is filled with hot air balloons, bright and colorful against the background of
the Sandia (“Watermelon”) Mountains (another name which works better in Spanish
than in English). Our visit to Albuquerque happens to coincide with the annual
balloon festival. We’re told that as many as 800 will be launched today.
There
is nothing light or airy about Seiju Mammoser. I have some difficulty
determining what his attitude to the interview is. Suspicious? Skeptical? At
the very least, cautious and reserved. He is the abbot and founder of the
Albuquerque Zen Center. The web site identifies him as the “resident osho”—or
priest. He does not use the term “teacher.” As we’re walking the grounds, he
pulls a few weeds from before the front wall. “Are you the groundskeeper as
well?” I ask.
“I’m
everything: groundskeeper, office manager, janitor.” That’s as chatty as he
gets. This is not a man with a lot of small talk, and one feels he does not
suffer fools lightly.
He’s casually dressed in jeans,
a black t-shirt and a quilted vest, accompanied by his dog, Jemez. “Just like
the mountains to the north. There’s a Zen Center there too—the Bodhi Manda
Center.” He denies he’s being coy when it later comes out he failed to mention
that his former wife was its “resident osho.”
Jemez, he assures me, is the
real teacher. Jemez, of course, is just busy being a dog.
Both Bodhi Manda and the
Albuquerque Zen Center are affiliates of Rinzai-Ji, Joshu Sasaki’s temple in
Los Angeles, and Sasaki is the only “teacher” they recognize. The last couple
of years have been tough on Rinzai-ji, and that may explain Seiju’s manner.
I cautiously pose my opening
question somewhat differently than usual. “If I were a young person from the
neighborhood who came by one day, knocked at the door, and asked, ‘What’s this
all about? What’s Zen do?’ What would you say to me?”
“I would laugh.”
I wait to see if anything more is
coming, then prod a little: “Okay, so now I’m probably embarrassed, but I don’t
run off. And I keep asking, ‘What’s the purpose of Zen?’”
“Basically you have to sit down
and be still. When you’re clear about where ‘here’ is, then we can talk about
other things. If you’re not clear about what ‘here’ is, what are we talking
about?”
The interview does not get easier
as we proceed.
No doubt the emphasis here is on
practice. Other things are extraneous. Though, oddly, there is a large library
on two walls just behind me, and Seiju tells me it’s the best on Buddhism in
the South West—better than the collection at UNM. I resist the temptation to
see if my first book is on the shelf.
Although he founded the Albuquerque
Center, Seiju was working at Rinzai-Ji in Los Angeles when the stories about Sasaki’s
inappropriate behaviour gained notoriety. The wife of the monk who was then
heading things up in Albuquerque was a journalist, and two articles came out in
the local paper highly critical of Sasaki. The monk decided he should
disaffiliate the center from Rinzai-ji. Seiju came back to prevent that, and the
monk set up shop elsewhere in the city taking some members with him. Seiju was
faced with rebuilding the Center, a task made more difficult by the fact that
the only source of income was from donations and membership fees. With
membership down, those revenues were also down.
When I ask how many people
practice at the Center, his answer is vague. Maybe twenty people will show up
on Saturday. During the week, sometimes no one shows. When I push him for a
number, he tells me, “Somewhere between 20 and 50.”
Membership may be down, but he’s
not about to compromise his approach: “You want teaching? Show me where ‘here’ is.”
He is, however, frank and
forthcoming about Sasaki’s problems. It has been a challenge to all the centers
associated with Rinzai-ji, and a lot of people have left. Still, like Myokyo in
Montreal, Seiju has no doubt about Sasaki’s qualifications as a teacher. “He
was always putting more effort on the table on your behalf than you were.”
As we head towards the zendo, he
calls my attention to a sheet of paper on the bulletin board by the door. It’s
a quotation from a talk Sasaki gave at Bodhi Manda in 1982:
“The standpoint of this Zen
Center is our own practice of Dharma Activity. Therefore we accept those who
want to study Dharma Activity. Those who are not interested in Dharma Activity
should leave immediately.”
Seiju states it bluntly:
“Teaching is doing. Words are words, but teaching is doing.” It all comes back
to sitting down, being still, and breathing. If you’re not up to that, have a
nice drive home.
The sky is empty as I head back
to the friends’ house where we are staying. The balloons have landed, been
located by their chase vehicles, and are packed up, ready for tomorrow’s
flight.
Cypress Trees in the Garden:
Cypress Trees in the Garden:
Mammoer, Seiju Bob – 45-55,
56-57, 66, 99, 121
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